Pain in my life, life, life

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From the graffiti in the pissy project hallways
To *****s hustling on the block
Settin' up shop crack cocaine bottle of red tops
Youngins with the boom box lettin' they head bop
My vision was blurred
Like the TV that them *****s in the feds watch

The hood is like a pitfall with corner liq stores
You sellin' bricks all, you shoot a *****
Get 'em bricks by the big dawgs
It ***ked up skinny *****s get pick on till they buff up
Don't lift weights, shoot 38's, load the clip pull the truck up

I been through it, sittin' in the block in that tan Buick
KRS in the speakers equivalent to Nas and Ether
That was 85, I was six
Couldn't wait to get him and sit in my father's lap
And watch a Martin Scorsese flick

I'm from the old school these new school *****s bore me
Ain't got **** for me
Shoulda been influenced by Calvin Broadus
Nasir Jones and Sean Corey
I'm on the road to glory by the time I don't had

So much pain in my life, I shoulda killed myself
Smoked that crack cocaine and swallowed all them pills myself
I'm a legend D.O.C. said it
Hip hop is forever embedded inside my veins
And I'm takin' my credit

(So much pain in my life)
You feel this pain I've been havin'
Wouldn't lead to much change
'Cause down here, not much changed
'Cause everybody wanna thug, mayn

(So much pain in my life)
If you knew the pain I sustained
Just from lettin' my gun bang
If you would pump your breaks young mayn
You'd jump in the other lane

Game, I'm finding it harder for me to live with it
Thinkin' 'bout getting on some religious ****
They say religion is for degenerated
But if the church take away the hurt
Then dammit I need to get wit it

So much pain in my life
'Cause it's gotta be the devil
It's got us slavin' probably below the poverty level
We could blame the white man but then why do we settle?
Collectively we could expect to see the lives in the ghetto

To be forever facin' just death is a revelation
We could get on pace if we better the education
And make some real songs about more than just ballin' and big ice
For something to get 'em to think twice

So much pain in my life
I feel for those who felt they didn't need they brothas
Now they teenage mothers
Care about the AIDS in Africa 'cause we they brothas
Regardless of how they portrayed, I can see they love us

It bring pain in my life
To know that there's a whole f'n nation dyin'
'Cause they can't afford medication
While we got the money to goto war
Not for something that was sure
But for **** that that was strictly just speculation

(So much pain in my life)
You feel this pain I've been havin'
Wouldn't lead to much change
'Cause down here, not much changed
'Cause everybody wanna thug, mayn

(So much pain in my life)
If you knew the pain I sustained
Just from lettin' my gun bang
If you would pump your breaks young mayn
You'd jump in the other lane

Dawg, I'm stressed out
Sometime I be thinkin' God, I'm ready to check out
I ain't lyin' I be ready to come see you
It cant be worse than if I get caught with another heater

And I ride those even though I don't been to jail 4 times for those
In these streets I done seen too much
Too many people I love done had they ***kin' head bust

So much pain in my life, you don't know pain
You don't know bout losin' yo life in a hurricane
Naw, don't you don't know how it feel
To spend a weekend with 'em then yo daddy get killed

Pain in my life, I don't been through it all
That stakin' hoe Katrina took my city like a dog
I done been down but I'mma tell you what
A real ***** always find a way to get it done

(So much pain in my life)
You feel this pain I've been havin'
Wouldn't lead to much change
'Cause down here, not much changed
'Cause everybody wanna thug, mayn

(So much pain in my life)
If you knew the pain I sustained
Just from lettin' my gun bang
If you would pump your breaks young mayn
You'd jump in the other lane