I'm tired, hating my soul, I'm lost, nowhere to go

Gl*** hits the floor then breaks, the bottle's empty
I'm drunk with a monkey on my shoulder tryin' to tempt me
10 Cents to my name my park is empty
I sit back reach for a smoke gently

Reside to the couch with a shameful slouch
And a tear covered face tryin' slur these liberty's out
My last words, the final testament
I'm half pissed, anxious as hell tryin' to make the best of it

The only thing left is memory's to reminiscence
Time's that I hit the park with who I can get my piss on
Nights that I've made love to women in the winter
Summer time, I've had chicks hook, line and sinker

Times were good then, no doubt, there ain't no question
But drinks hittin' friends, nah, that leads leads to depression
And my only expression's why it rhymes in a session
But my gift is my curse and I'm tired of obsession

I'm tired, hating my soul, I'm lost, nowhere to go
I'm tired, hating my soul, I'm lost, nowhere to go
Head fast, losing control, I'm tired, nowhere to go

If I should die now, I wonder what ya think of me
Better still, would you share a last drink with me?
Would you push the boundaries and take it to the brink with me?
And if the boat went down would you stay there and sink with me?

See that's the stuff I need to keep me up and breathin'
But it just ain't there so ***k this world, man, I'm leavin'
You slandered me for my actions and bad behavior
But all the time I was only searchin' for a saviour

Fair enough, I did the most to push the limits
But peers creatin' pressure can ruin that persons image
And since I dropped it feels like you're forgotten
Some would say the apple gone bad can turn the basket rotten

If that's the way that you feel then I can deal with it
But ask for forgiveness and I'm a be real with it
See you're a pawn in this game with my songs
And I'm a flame twice as bright that only burns half as long

I'm tired, hating my soul, I'm lost, nowhere to go
I'm tired, hating my soul, I'm lost, nowhere to go
I'm tired, hating my soul, I'm lost, nowhere to go
Head fast, losing control, I'm tired, nowhere to go, ooh, noo

So much to say, so little time to do it
I gotta get this right so that you can never misconstrue it
To mum, I love you more than life in itself
And I hope my album sells, hope to bring you some wealth

To dad, you need to spend more time with the fam
You losin' touch and that's the worst mistake for a man
Don't become emotionally disabled
There's more to life than puttin' food on the table
And gettin' jagged in ya stable

To my sisters, stay strong, keep on smiling girls, it's priceless
I swear you'd Lenny's soul, it's lifeless
The day you've got the recipe to help them all remember me
Can you sing me a song that you know will get to me

Ask me a question and I'll tell you no lies
'Cause a man without regrets is a man ready to die
And that's the truth, all real, it's me in a nutshell
I'm over this somehow, I hope they raisin' the cut well