Thirteen when I started, cold hearted and curious
To the streets, gotta eat where every part is serious
Holding guns for reasons, believing it was the thug in me
All about the love, till the, the slugs hit me

Don't wanna die so I open my eyes
Chokin' on air, gaspin', hopin' I'm alive
Chalk my sneakers, **** even chalk my hat
Is this the path to the pearly gates? I'm walkin' back

Why it had to be me Lord when they sprayed this *****
I ain't ask for this life, I was gave this ****
Is it wrong packin' my heat when I ain't raised and ****
I'm tired on my tombstone engrave the ****

We all gotta eat, I'll die if you take this from me
I'm hungry so I ride trying to make this money
If that's a sin then ***k it, I'ma die with stripes
But touch me Lord and keep me in your eyes tonight

Call my kids but they don't walk back to me
Talk to my dogs and they don't talk back to me
Tried to hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn, I think I'm dead y'all, I might be dead y'all

Call my kids but they don't walk back to me
Talk to my dogs and they don't talk back to me
Tried to hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn, I think I'm dead y'all, I might be dead y'all

I wake up in the hospital, codeine out
IV's in veins like I'm coke fiend out
I'm outside of my body, I see myself
But I can't talk to nobody or be myself

I feel nothin' but tears from my mother's cheek
Droppin' on my arm when she tellin' my lil' brother I'm asleep
I try to feel her and touch her but it just not real
Will it surprise my pops when they say I just got killed

Shed some light on me Lord, let it ease the pain
Put somethin' in my heart, let me breathe again
'Cause it's just the lil' tiny kids who need Hussein
And I ain't playin' no more, I ain't playin' the game

It's time to pull your pants up, fight the war of life
You got a lost soul then give yours to Christ
'Cause I'ma take mine and do it surly right
Give me my soul back please, let me enjoy my life

Call my kids but they don't walk back to me
Talk to my dogs and they don't talk back to me
Tried to hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn, I think I'm dead y'all, I might be dead y'all

Call my kids but they don't walk back to me
Talk to my dogs and they don't talk back to me
Tried to hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn, I think I'm dead y'all, I might be dead y'all

Verse 3: Fatal
These *******s done hit me off, I'm in a casket
They just did surgery, I'm watchin' how the murdered me
My lil' brother thing I'ma pull through
And grandma I knew, you know ain't no way I could fool you

My daughter ain't got no fears, now she can see me clear
Trying to tough me, her mama think she ***kin' with her tears
Just when you look back it was a memory
I don't watch y'all to mourn, just remember me

I'm putting it down hard, legal or illegally
***** got get his chips either way, don't grieve for me
Ugh, caught up with me, hit me
Praying to God so the demons won't come and get me

Fold my arms, I don't love this life
Ain't no slippin' when you thug for life
Fold my arms, I don't love this life
Ain't no slippin' when you thug for life

Call my kids but they don't walk back to me
Talk to my dogs and they don't talk back to me
Tried to hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn, I think I'm dead y'all, I might be dead y'all

Call my kids but they don't walk back to me
Talk to my dogs and they don't talk back to me
Tried to hug my mom and she walked right through me
Damn, I think I'm dead y'all, I might be dead y'all